Sunday, July 25, 2010
The card is for our dear friends who lost their sweet baby boy. We were in the club of having preemie boys, 1 pound babes, a long journey in the NICU, and we never were REALLY pregnant. We will always be connected. This was my post on our son's website yesterday.
Today we went to buy a mobile. We hung it on Eli's crib. He seemed to like it. He drank 2 bottles today. He smiled while I rubbed his back during our snuggle.
I can't write anything more because my heart is breaking. Eli's partner in crime passed away today. Josh and I can not even imagine their loss, their pain, their emptiness. I can barely type I am crying so hard. I am not the type that cries. It is not fair that Eli's best friend was so brave and fought so hard and will never be able to meet face to face. There are so many things that you play out in your head of how you think they will be, how you wish they would go and how very wrong you are. This journey has taught us so many things. The hardest lesson has been that we have no control. No way to help the little ones that are fighting so hard. These battles they face, the scars they receive, all of which they will never remember. Although, we adults do. We must stay strong, find peace, and live. We don't get to choose who stays and who goes or even when they go. Eli will forever have an angel watching him from above. We cherished Eli's friend and will forever be reminded to cherish every moment we have together. Thank you for the priveledge to meet your sweet boy we know he will live on in each of us. Rest in peace sweet Declan you will forever be in our hearts.